A very subjective look into AWFC

A few days ago we all heard the news of Caitlin Foord extending her contract. Those news, coupled with the club gifting yet another legend to a direct rival aka Beth to City, made me feel very angry. I couldn’t, and still cannot, wrap my head around the fact that we chose to extend one player and get rid of the other when the output, historic countributions etc etc etc and infinite etceteras favor Beth. I wanted to be critical about it and express how I didn’t accept who we let go and who is seem as a club “legend” but I was way too harsh.

It was the first time in over 600 blogs I’ve written that I decided to delete one and to be fair to Caitlin and Lotte, I am glad I did, glad nobody read it and I would like to apologize not just to them as women and people, but to you the reader as well because you deserve better.

Granted, I never insulted them, nor would I ever do it and I wouldn’t dish out any abuse but I think I didn’t express my disappointment with the board and sadly I aimed it at them. Now, I won’t lie to you either, I don’t like those players and I wish they played for other clubs. That’s not going to change and for that I don’t apologize. I am used to a certain type of standard and in my mind they aren’t anywhere near what we need in terms of, if nothing else, consistency at a very high level… at Arsenal Women levels. I cannot help it but whenever I would see LWM, Foord and Pelova start (plus Beth on the bench let’s say) I am considerably less confident and interested… I do not control that, but what I do control is how I express whatever I feel and one thing is to say an opinion to a friend and another thing is to make it public and I think I was a little much.

So, in the spirit of being better… in the spirit of understanding that this crusade of asking the club for more, is a fool’s errand, I will try to shift my way of writing a bit and focus as I once did on positive things, because the last thing you need me to do is feed your feed with bullshit.

There is something to be said for speaking my truth and I won’t shy away from that, however, there are more effective ways, regardless of the lack of power I have. This is also a respect thing and a hypocrisy thing, but that is a whole different blog post altogether.

Lastly, like I always say… create a blog, do a podcast, start a YouTube channel… make your voices heard and make it better than anything I’ve done, which won’t be difficult. I just think as a fan base we all deserve more dissenting and alternative voices, but also learn to not be like me sometimes when I cross a line here and there.

Also, we should sign Caroline Hansen Graham, Ona and Lucy Bronze to make up for Beth and Katie.

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